The Main Spam Topic 2.0

[Purple Parrots Fan]

It's amazing how eerily similar the cast looks. All the way down to the hair and clothes.

[The Red Jaguars]

Is there something wrong with the forum right now? Whenever I click on someone's name, it takes me to the main page. And everyone's avatars are gone. 

[The Viper]

Hello all, I am posting one of my biyearly posts to say hello and then disappear for a while. Good bye!

[The Red Jaguars]

Hi Viper and Happy 213th Birthday!   

[The Viper]

Thanks 

[Purple Parrots Fan]

Welcome back Viper.

And yeah, what's up with the avvies? They're not working, at all.

[PurpleParrot319]

Everything seems to be working now. Yesterday, I kept clicking the button to mark forums as read, but it never worked. Now it does.

[Purple Parrots Fan]

Yeah, everything works fine now. And I'm glad too, because I wanted to at least view my own profile.

[Red Jaguars Fan]

Sorry to hear about what happened to GM1's friend.

Also, sorry I've been inactive lately. I've been more active on this other forum and I've been really stressed out lately thanks to a combination of real life problems and my mental illnesses.

A few months ago, I was expelled from school because of failed grades, but these failed grades were because I couldn't focus at all on my studies and the fact that my anxiety and depression got to the point that I couldn't physically get myself to go to school. It was bad enough already panicking when I have to go up in front of everyone to present something, but it got to the point that every time I go near school, I feel sick about it and just avoided it. I could've gotten help, but my therapist at the time was a bigot thinking that me being gay was the root of all my mental problems. Because I was too scared to speak up, I stopped going there. It became a downward spiral from there. I have been self harming a lot and everyday I think about killing my parents. Yes, I want them dead. If it weren't for them, I would've never ever been in this situation to begin with. Because they are such homophobes, I can't explain about my sexuality, something that is discussed in therapy, so I have to bottle it up. And they're also shitty parents. I've been showing signs of social anxiety since I was a toddler, and they did shit to help me. The only things they ever say is "We'll pray for you." and "Just think about what your therapist said" as if that solves everything. Also the fact that they scolded me in the past for even dropping to an average grade, and the fact that they kept saying that they keep saying I need to be more like the oldest sister with the perfect grades and shit. Because she's the "standard". Also, did I mention about the maid my family had? That maid constantly nagged at all of us, but especially me. And the parents don't even care about it. In fact, the one time I spoke up about her being a bitch to us, I had to apologize and she got off scot free. I feel like I've been abused. I still am.

[Purple Parrots Fan]

Sorry you've been going through some hard ships, RJF. I know how it feels to be depressed and nobody around you is trying to help you at all. I mean, I want to go to therapy so badly, I really want to get help despite feeling a little bit better in recent months. But my parents just dismiss it and say "You don't need therapy," "You're being ridiculous," "There's nothing wrong with you," and "You're just in a bad mood. You'll get over it by tomorrow." I am just going to keep feeling miserable until or unless I get the help that I REALLY need. Otherwise, I'm gonna continue to feel worse and worse. Your parents sound like real jerks. I hope things get better for you.

It's extremely hard to get better when your parents dismiss you and think depression is all in your head. And think you have nothing to be upset about just because you have such a "privileged" life. Don't they realize that people commit suicide over this?

[GreenMonkeys#1]

Holy shit, I feel very bad for you RJF.  It's almost like I don't know what to say. 

Try to get some more help and hopefully you can make it out without having you or anyone else getting hurt. Your parents sound like nutjobs, but you'd make your life end if you kill them. Think positive.

[Purple Parrots Fan]

Yeah, just think positive. That's what I try to do.

[Red Jaguars Fan]

And now I'm worried I may have yet another mental illness because I exhibit plenty of the symptoms of it.

Btw, I really wanna move out of the house asap. Problem? I'm too scared to even go for a job interview. I need money, and yet I don't think I can get over my social anxiety soon enough. And right now, I may be conscripted into the army early thanks to all this. I mean, I wonder how I'm still alive after everything that's happened.

[Purple Parrots Fan]

Btw, I really wanna move out of the house asap. Problem? I'm too scared to even go for a job interview. I need money, and yet I don't think I can get over my social anxiety soon enough. And right now, I may be conscripted into the army early thanks to all this. I mean, I wonder how I'm still alive after everything that's happened.

I have sort of the same problem, only it's not so much anxiety. It's just that there's no work around here. =/

[The Red Jaguars]

I am sorry you are going through all of that too, RJF. It sounds like the people that are suppose to help you are actually hurting you. I use to have anxiety troubles too. In high school, I was fine and never felt uncomfortable in social situations. But when I started college, that is when it hit me really bad. It's not so bad now, but I still hate presentations and talking in front of a lot of people. Your therapist sounds like a real asshole too. I wouldn't continue seeing her if she is not helping at all. Hopefully something good comes your way soon.